1. Boyfriend was laid off on Tuesday (3 weeks after I finally turned in my notice for second job).
2. Boyfriend's mom was in a car accident last night.
3. My grandma is in the hospital again.
I don't like these type of surprises (no one does I am sure), and normally I would be cursing everyone and their mothers. I can't this time, I can't feel that way and I refuse to let these negative situations get the best of me. Things are far from perfect right now, and yes I am worried about what is going to happen but I know it will pass. I hope to one day, look back and see that I was right and that things worked out in the end. Okay, the boyfriend was laid off, but I still have a job and we are healthy. We will struggle, but we will make it.
I am ashamed to admit this, but sometimes I wonder if there is a God somewhere. I see all the painful things that happen to those I love and even myself, and I can't help but wonder. Last night, when we learned about the car accident I panicked. Her car slid and rolled over! When people stopped to help her she was hanging upside down, strapped on her seat belt. She was not injured, she just had some minor cuts. When I saw her in the hospital, I looked at her and we both knew that God was watching over her. You know what that feels like? I can't explain it, but the warmth and calm that took over me was amazing. I am so thankful that she is well, that she is alive and that he watched over her.
My grandma is in the hospital again, and I honestly don't know if she will make it much longer. I hate to think this way, but I have to prepare myself for it. I know it's going to hurt so much when it happens, and I wish I could be there but I can't. I am helpless, and I don't know if it's best for me to be here. I don't know if I could stay emotionally stable if I see her. Maybe I am just a coward, but I refuse to give up on the thought that she will get better and she will go home.
2. Boyfriend's mom was in a car accident last night.
3. My grandma is in the hospital again.
I don't like these type of surprises (no one does I am sure), and normally I would be cursing everyone and their mothers. I can't this time, I can't feel that way and I refuse to let these negative situations get the best of me. Things are far from perfect right now, and yes I am worried about what is going to happen but I know it will pass. I hope to one day, look back and see that I was right and that things worked out in the end. Okay, the boyfriend was laid off, but I still have a job and we are healthy. We will struggle, but we will make it.
I am ashamed to admit this, but sometimes I wonder if there is a God somewhere. I see all the painful things that happen to those I love and even myself, and I can't help but wonder. Last night, when we learned about the car accident I panicked. Her car slid and rolled over! When people stopped to help her she was hanging upside down, strapped on her seat belt. She was not injured, she just had some minor cuts. When I saw her in the hospital, I looked at her and we both knew that God was watching over her. You know what that feels like? I can't explain it, but the warmth and calm that took over me was amazing. I am so thankful that she is well, that she is alive and that he watched over her.
My grandma is in the hospital again, and I honestly don't know if she will make it much longer. I hate to think this way, but I have to prepare myself for it. I know it's going to hurt so much when it happens, and I wish I could be there but I can't. I am helpless, and I don't know if it's best for me to be here. I don't know if I could stay emotionally stable if I see her. Maybe I am just a coward, but I refuse to give up on the thought that she will get better and she will go home.
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